In Lush (I'll Still Put Up Your Name)

I didn't know the eyes could speak,

words just as right, like artistic poetry...

and as quiet as the meditating monk,

can you hear aloud? my undying devotion...

Everything is connecting now,

a life full of struggle, a life full of optimism...

right path, right visions and white lies...

all for serenity and harmony...

Pulled the trigger a couple of times...

I'm still living this puzzled maze...

Most words are without rhymes...

Is writing reality based learnings a crime?

Idiopathicly Idiopathic

Yes I have a strong personality,

and a weak self support system,

severely dictated spirituality,

comin back to reality like Eminem.

Dumbfounded by the truth,

puzzled and scarred youth,

learned the art of learning,

livin like a extraordinary being.

Glowin like a saint,

prayers that taint,

small like a giant,

uniquely deviant.

The long road is to nowhere,

there is no back up plan,

directions in a straight line but goin circles,

like a milk with a lot of sugar unstirred.

"Heart Thinker"

They say when you fall in love we use our heart...

  The heart is a metaphor, and the brain is what we should aim for...

 on focus of the brain,the brain does the actions...

 and it receives the effects of those actions...

 so the love and heart thing don't exist, and the love and brain do exist ...

 or "love" was made by the creativity of the brain?

 Like a kid's infatuation,

 like cool aid with Valium, chloral hydrate, cyanide, and Phenergan,

 like mass starvation... 

-crazyjef on <3

Crazy Reflection

I see myself, I looked crazy,

I remember that life is crazy,

and I felt that I am alive,

oh what a good vibe...

To see yourself back...

a trance like phase...

a puzzle solved,

I'll continue to a new maze...

where I will be lost again,

look myself in a reflection...

fall and regain...

a thing called a crazy reflection

skimin

I love skimboardin, 

I love drinkin skim milk...

I love skateboardin, 

I love drinkin skate milk...

I love you...

I love drinkin you...

Do you love me? 

Will you drink me too?

The Beautiful

My life is a mess...

You pick it up one by one with passion.

And when I fall...

You also fall so I can have someone to fall to.

We  make mistakes...

And we grow, and make me avoid that false actions.

We make up with our imperfection...

And love me more... It makes imperfection perfectly beautiful.

I love you Beautiful...

You know that place between sleep and awake, 

the place where you can still remember dreaming? 

That's where I'll always love you... 

That's where I'll be waiting.

TKO

When I was young, wanted the greatest life...

I grew and all I wanted was a simple life...

A life full of laughters, a life full of memories, a life full of love...

I had this life, and now a life is all I have...

I guess I had learned enough and mistaken a lot...

I hat the greatest life, I am thankful for what I had got...

I am weak, like a child that kills, if you know what that feels?

Would God be angry? If I'd join his angels when they ring the bells.

"All’s well that ends"

Yes I’m fond of wishful thinking,

 and thought of stories ending in happily ever after…

I just close my eyes,

 and I'm in my door of great awareness,

careless and no stress...

i'm addicted to this,

 addicted to what I know is pause in time,

 surreality in this reality...

Creativity of my mind,

 or a unconscious psychological strategy.

“The War of the Beginning and the End”

Oblivion is always dreamed of in between the wars

The infinite darkness is yet to come

Who is going to save is in this life of scarce?

Praying for who they say is God,

to sent the savers and hoping they come

A thousand angels have come down

To get the souls from the depths of the underground

Save them from the loss of the darkness unfold

And release them in peace in the paradise of what is unknown

Dumb at Hearts

Is there any book for heartbreak?

Is there anyone who can help me for heart sake?

Lying in bed awake for hours, what would it make?

Truth can be a lie,
 but another thorn in my heart I’ll take

With open arms,
 I’ll still be here

With bleeding hearts,
 I’ll still be there

doomsday: a beautiful day in black blue and grey

When the end is near, 

we will all be equal,

 we will face the same consequences, 

the undecided faces, whatever races, 

whatever differences... 

It's crystal clear,

 it would be fatal, 

it will be erased pages, 

recycled phases, 

what a beautiful day it is... 

to see all end with a kiss

"The Forrest"

I just want to live my life and leave everything behind

I run if I have a hard time living, just running and leaving everything behind

I just work hard and live with promises, promises that I’ve never left behind

And too much of helping got me shot by a bullet in my behind

And behind all the success, the most obvious factor is that I am inspired

There are no nights that there is no longing, I never been tired…

Of the love that started when we were little and that love never had changed all of my life

And when you’re gone to heaven, and left me with jr., 

in our hearts the love will always be remembered and it will never die

I wrote this for my close friend Forrest.(and he even don't know we are close)

“Unexpected Happening”

I’m so fed up!

With your fuckin promises and alibis

With your truth sounding lies

And with your drunk red teary eyes

I have been waiting for this all my life

Keeping the hate and pain for the long time

All this years I’ve keep it all inside

You make me think this way

You make me hate you more each day

I truthfully mean what I say

When will you go away?

I wrote this as a thought of a girlfriend of a close friend.

When his father was drunk and too cool to hurt his children.

Part of family love...

family love.

‘‘They have put meat on the front of pack of wolves’’

Pour out emotions of poverty so die for property

Desperate for survival, doing best for their family

All compete in a week of roasted pig party

And die with hypertension and sociality

Drinking and smoking cigarette is the ritual daily

Effects are happiness and destruction of our body

These are simple things in life that we mostly have

More leisure than work, the work is finding a job

And all I see is steps until I die…

Just died early, it’s much better this way

I died not partying like in sinful parties that arise

But in a game, that stampede was the price

I wrote this about 4years ago... I wanna share this in memory of 

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/PhilSports_Stadium_stampede

The Tapping

Like a tattoo my love is permanent, but I'm not afraid to burn it,
if that tattoo betrays me...
It would bring scars, my scars are learning,
a reward made of pain...

I thought I loved you, but I realized I just love teaching...
Teach you the truth in all your lies...
You cannot destroy what I have had...
It's built with solid dedication, built with love...

I'd been imprisoned in lies, the truth has set me free... 
I've felt freedom, but I'm imprisoned by the pain of truth,
and never been free since then...

One day I'll be happy, and that day I'll still be teaching...
The tapping, the truth about the lies...

The Sadness Where Smiles Hide It

You can say everything at me
You can blame all the things on me
But I am who I am, I am me
and I’m saying, you can be whoever you want to be

Acceptance of the truth, is a brave concept existed on my mind
And to stand up for the truth is much braver
I’m human, I've been bad, I've been good, and I've been kind
But I think I’m right that we still got in ourselves that we have to find

Many Godly names; regardless of religion, I just simply believe there is a God
So we are all brothers, so the idea that we are all brothers we have to share love
But we have differences, we have emotions, we have pain, and we have pride
My learning is a as good as a misunderstanding that can be prevented by simple understanding

A talk, a walk, the music, the dance, the beauty, the art, the life so beautiful
The better and the worst, the winning in losing, it doesn’t get that complicated
We look, we critic, we unconsciously just see, and blinded by what we had seen ocularly.
But with understanding, and learning; we'll see the truth, the reflection of reality.

When I die, I don’t want you to remember me with all the good things I had done
I want you all to remember what I had learned, my life is my masterpiece
Many times I had thought of life, as dark as night, but there is a morning to wake up to
We live different situations, and there is no right side in a battle, because every side had
different reasons

I cried, I wept; that’s the use of tear ducts, I just used my body as what it's used to function(lol)
I hate, I forgive, I love, I stumble, I fall, and I stand up with the truth and its pain
Like what I said “you can say everything at me, you can blame all the things on me”
And my time will come and I will die, but dying cannot kill my name in anyone’s time

Talk to the Hand

I speak more of actions...

I don't say much...

but I shout my pain...

Whatever the situation!

When adrenaline hits me...

and you broke my heart again.

and I look so silent ...

and any time I will explode...

I  punch my self to tell myself I'm alive...

and my mind doesn't respond ...

It does'nt respond to the stimuli it made...

it is crazy and I am just it's slave.

and in teary eyes I burnout...

where is the back door, I want out...

self preservation, what's the cut?!

I don't even need answers, what is that about?!

"The Mimicry of the Mime"

Why do stars shine even if they don't exist?

We see the dying memories.... 

Occurring accidental legacies...

The beauty of reality in the series of never ending stories.

The missing links of the puzzle...

The undying fear of the unknown...

When will it be settled?

When will the unknown be known...

Now what is valuable?

in this paradox of time...

Yes we are people,

but most of us are mimes...

The Learnings of My Stupendous Life

The past is a fact we can learn from

And the fact that we had committed so much sins, expect more to come

Think well before any decisions should be done

Or suffer the consequences of the wrong decisions equals to lost and gone

Do no harm to others and do no harm to yourselves

Like the golden rule, do it to everybody and yourself

Lust as it is a disease destroying lives

As an educated human being, we should act like one and so in the tests we could survive

Expect less, be content be simple, healthy and fit

Even hatred can make us blind, but its better to be blinded by love,

as you stumble out of it

Loquacity can make us wrong, but helping for goodness can never be a crime

That my time will come and I will die, but dying cannot kill my name in anyone’s time